Sunday, March 23, 2008
I've been encouraged to share about a certain verse which I find particularly helpful as of late. Initially, I opened the page and couldn't think of what to blog or how to express how I feel so I succumbed to closing the page.
I thought about it and decided against being so selfish.
From November 2007 last year, I've been going through a very tough patch in my life. I lost alot of sleep and was unable to concentrate at what lay ahead. I took things very badly and felt very negatively about myself. For weeks, I cried every single day, I clung onto things that were temporary and should be insignificant. I couldn't slash my wrists because people will look and spread gossip amongst themselves so I slashed my thighs. But the physical pain only took the emotional pain away for a short while, a minute or two. But that was how desperate I wanted to rid the emotional pain, that even that short minute of temporary pain was like a light of hope and ease.
I felt very held down by the situation. Constantly, I tell myself to suck it up or walk tall but I was so easily affected by what was happening at that point of time that I couldn't make it to the next step. I had this huge void within myself that I was trying to fill up with the most unimaginable things. I degraded myself by willing to do the most disgusting things in hopes of making myself feel better.
As of late, I've started to feel alot of better. I've begun to place down hurt, I'm already on my two feet and I'm slowly walking. I hope that I would be able to start running in the next few months. I don't look back but instead, I try to reach for what lays ahead. Sometimes, I have this compulsive need to check out something that I'd really like to know but when I evaluate the situation I realised that it'd do more harm. I don't want to and I cannot let myself go back to the horrible person I became when my world fell apart so I refrain from checking on things that should remain insignificant, what you don't know can't hurt you.
Some nights, when I feel like doing irrational things, I'd flip to Hebrew13:5-6 "Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you. So we say with confidence, 'The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?'" I've realised that God puts me through everything for a reason and He'll never give me a burden too heavy to carry. He knows perfectly well what's best for me. Eventually, all things will pass away and what remains standing at the end is not the guy that tore me apart or the things that he did to, but rather, My God and me.
Just last week, this one guy said something that stopped me in my tracks, I was so sure that I was going to fall. And I wanted to ask God why. But instead, I prayed incessantly, through the tears and asked God where do I go from there. And he amazing spoke to my heart 'Forward'.
I never expected myself to write such a long testimonial.
Chermaine.
Monday, March 17, 2008
Helloooooooo.
Haha okay this is my first post here so it's weird but anyway, Easter is coming! It's so cool right? Can i hear loud cheering? Hahhaa sorry i sort of downed 1/3 a bottle of 1.5 litre coke today. ANYWAY, i invited 7 friends down so far, some more to go. But the thing is that there arent any positive replies, or rather very shaky responses so can you all please pray? Cos my school really needs a revival. I look at the people in my class and i wanna cry. Thing is, the people who really need God dont think they do and soooo i have decided to target those who are okay (or at least i think they are) in life and rather happy. Cos after all, they all need God right? Yup i hope you all will join me and pray cos God said that when two or more are gathered in His name, He will hear and answer our prayers. Amen? Yeah. So if you have prayer requests can tell me also (:
Love,
Alethea Goei Min Yi,
hey guys! (:
easter outreach is coming up and here's the details if u dun know it yet.
22nd March 08, Saturday, 3:45pm - 7pmMusic, Drama, Games, Gospel Sharing, and Dinner at only $5!!!Remember the challenge.
2 friends(:
I know some of you guys have been asking down a lot of your friends and haven't received any positive response yet. just wanna encourage you guys to keep on persevering! Here's a verse from the bible:
"Sow your seed in the morning, and at evening let not your hands be idle, for you do not know which will succeed, whether this or that, or whether both will do equally well. " - Ecclesiastes 11:6
Dont' give up. Just keep going and going and going. Like God-powered duracell =) God is in control, so remember to PRAY PRAY PRAY too!!! Consider fasting one meal this week to pray for easter(: Or one day if u're more "garang". hahaha.
Remember what we talked about in tm at the very start of the year...
Vision + Action + Faith + Perseverence = A Mighty Act of God.
So keep acting, keep believing, and keep persevering!!
see you guys on sat!! :D
(btw to any guys reading this, how does a guy stayover at my place this friday night after prayer sound? sms me what u think at 96288281)
-Joash
Sunday, March 16, 2008
heey guys!
I just stumbled across this site cos i was bored. i typed "jesus christ" into yahoo and found this webbie:D lots of great stuff there. If u're bored, just check it out and read some of the articles!
http://www.ccci.org/training-and-growth.aspxi've read the one on fasting and currently checking on this section called transferable concepts (WHICH IS AWESOME!)
most of it was written by dr bill bright, who is dead now i think. not sure. but he founded campus crusade and is a really really awesome guy. and the material is great! SO READ IT(:
peace out:D
-Joash (i really gotta remember to sign off more often)
Monday, March 10, 2008
Hey Guys :D
It's me, AGAIN. (it's joash, if u haven't guessed:P)
I just realised it was the holidays yesterday, how slow is that. Living in the army really makes me feel like a frog in a well:P
But hey, just wanted to encourage u guys to make good use of the holidays. :) It certainly is a great time to rest, catch up on work, meet up with friends, but don't forget the most important thing of all! Waiting on God(:
i challenge u all to spend maybe a day, or an afternoon, just spending time with God. you can spend it reading his word, meditating on it. you can spend it praying, maybe for the outreaches coming up or anything that God burdens your heart with. you can worship with a praise cd. you can read a good christian book. maybe even meet up with ur pace partner just to pray for something!
Invest your time in something that really lasts, and what lasts more than eternity and your relationship with God? of course, set aside time for stuff like studies and family too!
Hope you guys have a great holiday(: I'll be spending this week in some ulu-fied corner of singapore watching over soldiers that won't fall into the water. Ah well. Will be keeping all of you in prayer!
Take care yeah! every single one of u! =)
oh yeah, watch out for nigel and edric's call this week, they'll be contacting you all about the cg outreach! Be helpful and reply when they sms u or something:P it really makes their job a lot easier.
(Btw, it's gonna be awesome! i went to recce with nigel yesterday and we've got a great route planned out. it's gonna be loads of fun. i promise! :D)
See u guys there(:
Monday, March 3, 2008
YO! hope u guys haven't already forgotten your goals for this year cos we just reviewed it two days ago!! :) let's find practical ways to achieve your goals because growth is important yeah? yeah:D
anyway! for those who didn't set goals at the start of this year.. here's the format(:
My personal goals for 20081. Worship
2. Discipleship
3. Fellowship
4. Service
5. Missions
6. Physical
7. Family
8. Studies
9. Others
That's it(:
Remember to make SMART goals!
Specific
Measurable
Achiveable
Realistic
Tangible
and just to recall what we talked abt in the start of the year...
WHAT'S OUR CELL VISION?????
*drum roll*
LOVE!! :)
There's a very cool story about the apostle john and love, i'll see if i can find it and post it up here some time!
So let's keep loving each other in practical ways yeah?
Because the bible says "let us not love with words or tongue but in actions and in truth." - 1 John 3:18 it doesn't mean don't say encouraging things, it means let's not just give God lip service. yeah? :)
God bless you all :D
